Saturday, January 10, 2015

Gratitude



The new year came quickly, and with it, a lot of imminent transition. I'm exploring new possibilities for my career. I will be moving soon (not sure where.) Even small things will be changing, like my phone plan, my skating routine, my eating habits, my love life. Everything is a little chaotic, so I want to take a minute to re-center through a larger-than-usual gratitude post.

1. I am thankful for my career. I have been with my company for four years, and when I started I was green and new and fresh-- but scared. I faked it well, though, and learned a little more each day. Now I have my own office, a lot more responsibility, and a wealth of knowledge that will carry me into this new year and beyond. I am grateful for the foundation I have built in my current position and for my boss for mentoring me through it.

2. I am thankful for the opportunity to use my design and marketing skills for a non-profit organization that helps children and families affected by pediatric cancer. I am honored to have met these families and to watch their children heal and grow over the years. These kids are inspiring. The parents' unending courage in the face of terrifying diagnoses and treatments amazes me. The patients with their little bald heads and their siblings with their brave faces encourages me. I am a better person for knowing them.

3. I am thankful for my dog. Tater sleeps late when I want to sleep late. He is good with children, with other animals, and with people. He is trained (no thanks to me) and has rescued me. On the days when I'm hardest on myself, Tater is kind to me. When I am cranky and tired, Tater is excited by seemingly small things, like a bite of my banana or a toy from the dollar aisle at Target. I can't believe he's been mine for almost two years now.

4. I am thankful for my tiny townhouse. My roommate and I have made it feel like home. We have a good relationship, and mismatched furniture, and my room is always messier than hers. But its ours, and when we come home after a long day, we know the dogs will be smiling in the window. We know that big green couch-- the one that's covered in dog fur currently-- will catch us. This week was the coldest week I can ever remember experiencing here in the Sweet Carolinas. My city's homeless weren't far from my mind or my prayers this week. And here I sit typing this at the bar in my warm kitchen, feeling both undeserving and grateful. I'll be honest. I'm not quite sure how to reconcile the two.

5. I am thankful to be able to afford real food. I was walking through Aldi today, picking up a head of broccoli and some almond milk. At one point I stopped, nearly cross-eyed, at all the food. Food everywhere. Food and more food. I live in the land of plenty-- of excess-- and had this "a-ha!" moment about how wasteful I am. I spend too much. I buy too much. I let some of it go bad while waiting for me to cook it in my fridge. I eat out too much. I am one of the lucky ones that have access to food that can sustain me. I want to think more about how I use this gift. I want to be more intentional in this area of my life moving forward.