Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Two very important lessons I learned in year 25.

I turned 26 at 12:01 p.m. yesterday. The last year has been about growing and learning, and I want to share some things with you that have challenged me and my thoughts on each.

Nails are "Black Leopard" wraps from www.jammingwithaudrey.com
Mug from Marthe Pinaire on Etsy.

1. You find out who your friends are. This year has by far been one of the toughest of my life, and I can honestly say, the friends that couldn't swing it fell by the wayside. It hurt. It shook me in a way I wasn't expecting. There is absolutely nothing like that feeling you get as you're untying that anchor from your foot, though. Saying goodbye can be a good thing. Part of figuring out who I am means saying no to things and people that don't make me happy anymore. I have done this time and time again, but it still feels like exercise. I hope in year 26 it starts to feel more natural as I grow into this phase of my life where I stop trying to please others and live a life that's authentic. I want to surround myself with people who encourage me to live my life in a way that brings me joy and makes me grow. 

2. It's totally okay to look like a fool. This weekend I tried stand-up paddle boarding for the first time, which is hysterical, because I'm possibly the least-coordinated person on the planet. Not only that, I'm an excellent doggy-paddler but not really a swimmer. But I did it. I tried something with some good friends that I never would have tried otherwise, and it. was. fun. And also hilarious. Because I fell off not-so-gracefully, but I stood up, and that was half the battle. I generally don't like doing things if I know I won't be the best. I get frustrated at not being GREAT at things, and then I give them up because I don't want to look like a moron. This is a dumb way to live. I don't want to get to the end of my life and wish I had sung louder, played more racquetball, swum further, strummed the seven chords that I know on guitar more often... I want to say I tried it all. It would be a shame to say I was too much of a perfectionist to experience life to the fullest.

Here's to year 26. I feel like good things are on the way. I have both hands open, ready to grasp whatever life throws at me.